Another Big Day Down and Still Going Strong!

Today was a big day. I was so excited to present Summerfest to the community. I had been working on this event for the past two months and I was really excited by the result. The event had over 50 vendors, petting zoo, a huge bounce house and slide, a real fire truck, carnival games, music, food, dancing, karaoke, story time for kids, clowns, hula dancing, fitness classes, and a lot more! At least 500 people came out for this event. Even a group of cops came to the event. I got a little scared and asked if everyting was alright, one said, "Oh yea, it's a beautiful day and this event is so much fun!"

The bunny petting zoo was a huge hit, but I must admit it saddened me. Last week my bunny Thunder died. This is Thunder.

She was a pain in the ass, but one of the most wonderful pets I have ever had. Only a pain because of the amount of work it required to care for her, but she was worth it. She cuddled with me like another cat and, obviously, she was so stinking cute. I miss Thunder. =(

After my other events I would have celebrated with junk food, so now I am thinking of another way to reward myself for the amount of work I put into that event. It wasn't perfect, but neither is life. It was good enough for me to enjoy a long bath and maybe a plan an afternoon out with my kids tomorrow. Normally after planning an event, I do not skip a beat. I can not afford to stop working, but I am going to enjoy tomorrow and Tuesday off from working.

At the event today I did something super corny and silly. I got on the loud speaker and said, "this song is for my husband because he rocks" and had the DJ play "Rock Me" by Great White. lol I was a little embaresed to do it, but I super love him.

Before, at events with over a hundred vendors I have let the negativity of a few bring me crashing down. Not anymore. I loved my event and I feel that if just a few complainers were not happy, then over all I am still victorious. The hardest part about doing these kind of events is working for all my sponsors. All of my vendors are each my boss for the day and my goal is to please them. Planning an event for just one company is easy, because I cam please one business no problem, but having 50+ "bosses" is a little draining.

Anyway, in regards to weight loss, I am doing well. I have been doing the Isagenix cleanse for almost two weeks and still going strong. So far I have lost almost 45 pounds all together. Not to shabby, but I still have a long way to go. Tomorrow I am starting the liqued tea cleanse for two days and that is hard core.

To see a slide show of pictures from today's event, please visit http://sellitevents.com/

OMG

I've mentioned it before, but August is an extremely busy month for me, so there may be a hundred other topics worth covering, but I'm going to share an embarrassing story and get back to work! lol Also, want to make quick mention that I am doing the Isagenix cleanse and I feel awesome!

Here is the story: There are people who I would never want to share this blog with! NEVER! I did post this blog on facebook one time but I kind of figured my professional associates had better things to do then read my rantings; and that was true for most of them. Well, if I were to pick one person in all of humanity who I would NOT want to have read some of the crap I have posted (breaking toilet seats and being a whore), it would be one of my business heros. Last Thursday night I hosted a networking meeting with about 60 people in attendance- all on this list of people I would not want reading this blog. My highly respected business hero, who I will leave nameless, was a speaker at this event. He mentioned my blog!!! Yep, right in front of everyone he said "Hope's blog..."

It was a statement made in passing, but I was in shock.

OMG!!!!!!!!!! He read my blog.

So, business associates who I thought would never see this, I can only ask that you laugh with me instead of at me. Know that I am dedicated to reaching my goals and I am not afraid of anything in business or in my personal life. Your support would mean a lot to me.

By the way, here is a nice pic I took with my family last week. =)

At least I still have a chance to get old

Two years ago I stopped having a period. It has been something that has made me feel very low- less feminine and a big blob of flesh with no identity. But, nothing has hit me so hard as today- when I discovered that I have already been through menopause. My first thought was horror and fear because my worthless idiot doctor announced this in a brief email with no other explanation. Honestly, I thought if you have menopause this early you die early. I always thought that and when I read that e-mail I took it as, "No matter what you do, the damage is done, you are never going to be a grandmother or grow old with your husband." Oh, it was a really scary feeling and I am still shaking and crying, but my mom and husband assured me I was mistaken. Now I just hope they are right, because I still have not had the chance to talk to the doctor and I am freaking out.

Right now I can not say for sure how this will change me, so an update will have to come later. Should I stop having fun and having new ideas? Should I give up on long term goals because I am post menopausal? I did want another child, but now that's out of the question.

The only thing that has helped me feel better at this point is my husband. He deserves a medal of honor for taking this news the way he did. I called him at work sobbing and continued to sob on the phone for five minutes before I could say the most negative, self deprecating, vile things I could say about myself and let him know I was no longer a women and he had to leave me. My husband and I may have problems (and we do, I have not wrote about them, but we do), but he is perfect! He was loving, and sweet, and made me feel so good. He even made me feel young and pretty. To take me from where my head was at to feeling young and pretty- that's pretty fantastic. I'm a lucky women.

10 Minutes later: I just took a moment to look up some more info about this on Web MD and it looks like my crazy idea that I am going to die young was off base so I still have a chance to grow old. Everything else I will figure out along the way. Sorry for the morbid post. Tomorrow I will write the post I originally planned to with a rant about clothing. I will share some interesting pics of my closet.